W A L L F L O W E R
There are assorted differences and similarities between a typical Singaporean girl and me.
I don't mind walking x kilometres and sweating which makes me look like a mess.
But, I mind slow network connections.
I'm not afraid of snakes or having an ugly battle scar.
But, I'm afraid of cockroaches and the dark.
This just shows that albeit there are vast and subtle differences, similarities do exist between you and I.
I wonder what i look like in your eyes.
Am I as pretty as the girl with thousands of followers on Instagram? Am I the only one you set your eyes on amongst the busy crowd in Orchard Road? Do you find my frivolousness annoying or cute? Sometimes the fear of not living up to expectations or the fear of losing someone paramount is comparable to the deep vast ocean, for it has the ability to kill you. This is exacerbated by being someone who is eminently insecure. Sometimes I feel so awkward in public places, so I instinctively wear my earpieces to shut the world out.
Most nights as I look out of my window, staring into oblivion, looking at those miraculous specs of light dancing across the heavens, I can't help but wonder if the person I have dreamt about my entire life is doing the same. Perhaps, we're staring at the same star in the same sky on the same night making the same wish. There are innumerable contrasting thoughts that run through my mind at 3AM in La La Land. These thoughts often revolve around the people whom I care deeply for -the source of my happiness and sadness. I'm sure many of you reading this do the same. We're not the few foolish ones like the movies. Trust me, you are not alone.
Please don't allow society to turn you into a person you're not. You may not be perfect, but nobody can be the perfect you. Cheers. xoxo